Happy Night :)

HE DROPPED BY AT OUR HOUSE.

First ever guy who visited me. TT____________TT 

Though he's not courting me but the fact that I like him and he visited me makes me so damn happy!

This may not be a big deal to others but this is just one of the momentous events of life. 

Ultimate Kpop Survivor

I was laughing at myself when I found out that the main casts were related to Mir and Yoochun. No wonder the actress who played Seung Yon's role looks like Mir. Woo Hyun on the other hand resembles some of Yoochun and Thunder's facial features.  It's like Yoo Hwan  (Woo Hyun) would be the product of Yoochun and Thunder's face when combined. 

Yoochun + Thunder's face XD

I watched the series without knowing who's who. So after watching this I asked google who are these people and google surprised me! So Go Eun Ah is Mir's older sister and Park Yoo Hwan is the younger brother of Yoochun. Hahaha the Park brothers falling in love to a girl whom they thought to belong to male species.

I enjoyed this series' lovey-dovey moments until I saw the ending. The ending was indeed disappointing!!!!!! This left me a lot of questions. -____-

Him

About 2 months ago, my friend wanted me to introduce to him. Everytime she asks me to meet him I would give her a NO. It's because I'm afraid of rejections. Add it up that I was still mourning for my unrequited love. But then my friend told me that if I meet him it does not necessarily mean that we have to like each other.  I guess she was right. Meeting someone from the opposite gender does not equate to a romantic relationship.

Finally, the time came that we have to meet. I can say that he's very charming. I liked the way he smiled. He was wearing a plain white shirt, I dunno but it looked good on him. :)

I noticed that my friends were sneaking on taking photos with the two of us so I asked him to pose with me to satisfy them. Hahaha uhm...well I liked it in the first place :p When we were planning to go on our next destination, our friends told us to walk ahead. I'm really thankful to my friends for pushing us away from them. I appreciate him making me comfortable with him. He would talk to me random things and then blurt out jokes which I found it funny even when some of them are a little cheesy. Hahaha I'm weird.

Then night came that some of my friends had to go home first. Our common friend insisted that we should enjoy the night first before we go home. Again, for the nth time she isolated us. The two of us decided to go to a nearby mall. Unexpectedly, my heart started to beat faster. I was starting to get more nervous while walking on the street beside him. We were just walking and talking and walking until we reached the last floor. We stopped and leaned over the rails while looking at the colorful lights from each household of that place. It was beautiful, I must say. He asked me if I wanted to take a photo but I told him no. Blame shyness. Urgh.. I really wanted to but this stupid shyness ate me up.

We went to a coffee shop to have chat. While we were talking I was looking at his eyes. I think he got uncomfortable that sometimes he had to look at random things just to avoid my gaze for a moment. :p

Before heading to the bus terminal we went back to our friend's house to get our things. We had a photo together. Honestly I wanted to give him a hug but then I controlled myself. It's obvious that I like him , since in the first place I would not go with him, whom I just met a few hours earlier to a place where it's just him and me and other people but then I still don't want to have a touchy touchy impression to him.  When we were about to hop in the bus, I shook hands with him and thanked him. My friend jokingly said to give him a hug. I just smiled and waved. I would really love to give him a hug but it's not the right time yet.

Everything that happened were my first time. As of now I'm glad that those things happened with him.

Mong-ing and GD

My brain is having this mong (blank) effect. My neurons are not in the mood to do anything related to school work -_- I have been in front of my screen for hours and yet I still don't have the gusto to do my report. I'm feeling a little dizzy and nauseated now. Ugh. Plus my right wrist is feeling painful sensation. Another 'ugh' for that.

Anyway I  found this video of GD way back 2007 [as the title of the video says]. I wasn't aware that he had already shown his glorious chest before and to think that for months, I have been looking for a video where I could have a good view of his anterior thorax :D He barely shows skin so my curiosity level is just so high high. Yeah I have seen a photo of his bare top showing his tattoos but I'm not contented. XD

The spot of that girl  in the video was to die for. ;~;

Ragefest!

This 4-day vacation just went by so swiftly. And I still haven't prepared for our PD exam this Wednesday. I'm planning to re-read my notes tomorrow since I think I'll be busy  working with my/our report tonight. Ugh. My plan of having a dramathon has been ruined.  I can't help but to have this feeling, this feeling of wanting to scream, curse and sigh when the the time table I have set is not followed. Grrrr Uhm..well not always but most of the time I really hate it when things didn't go according to what I have imagined.

Back to School

I'm doomed. Who's the culprit? I won't be mentioning his name. Lalala
Hint: Biochemistry and Pain
*I don't think my classmates would come across with my blog. They don't even know or care if I have one or not. Anyway regardless of either they don't care or know about the existence of this blog, I won't be mentioning name/s here. :P

We had our first quiz with 'pain'. It was really painful in my / our part since. what I read didn't actually come out in our quiz.  As for biochemistry, it has been 2 weeks and still I don't get it. We'll be having our one time quiz this July for our prelim period and I'm really worried. To the point that I get stressed just by thinking about it.

Nerve Damage and School

A few days ago I accompanied my mom at the hospital to have her blood checked as well as her complain of tingling sensation/numbness of her left hand. Good thing that we arrived there early so the queue was not that long. :)) Anyway fast forward *inserts f,nasjdklgfhduih sound*  the doctor said that it might be peripheral neuropathy . He gave us the needed medication to be taken by mom and asked us to observe her condition for 5 days and if it remains the same, we'll have to go back at the hospital to do the same series of lab tests plus CT Scan I think to check if there are any infarctions. TT__TT I am really praying that this won't be a serious problem.So far her condition isn't going good nor bad. I'm still hoping though that she'll feel better after she consumes her prescribed medication :)

As for school, I have already enrolled and classes start next week. I'm really excited and nervous 0.0 After how many years I'm back to school again. I'm yet to buy some stuff for my new abode for this school year. Though, I'd still be coming back home for sometime to bond with my family and my dogs [even if I hate cleaning up their shits hahaha because they smell really baaaaaddddd! ]. *wink. School supplies too. I'd be buying cheap stuff since I'm really saving up. 

Reflection

As I sat on my bed alone away from my fandom and real life, I have realized that for the past years I have been  paying attention to my needs and wants only. Yes I am aware that my parents are already getting old but that's it. I didn't have the sincere feeling of acknowledging what they have done and their sacrifices for me , for our family. Most of the time I get mad  and curse them in my mind whenever they scold me. I also take most of their scolding in a negative perspective.

Yesterday my mom started to feel numbness on her right arm and knowing that she had history of having angina and add it up that she has edema in her lower extremeties, I was really worried and frightened. I know that everyone of us will have our time to leave the earth but right now I'm not ready yet to lose my mom or anyone in my family [my pop has a cardiovascular disease as well. He had angioplasty 4 years ago]. I'm actually having a bargain with God. I am willing to give up my happiness and my selfish dreams..just don't take anyone from my family yet.

With these problems coming in our way, my parents' words started to knock me off

Be mature and responsible. Your father and I will not be forever around in this world

 I'm really afraid . I don't know whom am I gonna let all my feelings out so I just decided to pour everything in this blog. I have a BFF but I don't want her to be dragged with my problems. I am earnestly praying that Lord will hear my heart out.

Sudden twist in my life

Cancelling all my fangirling plans [buying merchandise, going to concerts, all out spazzing, Korea trip]  
I can't bear to be feeling happy and selfish when our family's having a crisis now. It was very sudden. All I thought everything was dandy fine until when we were having our dinner my mom blurted out the problem. 
I hope that God would give us strength to be strong as we face this crisis.  :')

Uncontrolled emotions

Bitterness, jealousy and frustrations [blame it to my weak emotions] led me to this wonderful EXO faniction : My Crazy Hot Aliens by dbskgirl4ever at asianfanfics.com . I cried a river over this story. My tears would not stop falling down during the later chapters. If my mom would see me crying she'd be weirded out again for sure the way when she sees me laughing and smiling over kpop. 

I enjoyed reading every chapter of it. It's a story filled with sweetness of ice cream, warmth of a newly cooked ramen, and cuteness of pucca !

**my eyes and head hurt due to excessive crying XDDDDD

TEYDADDYDAY

It's Youngbae's birthday!

I'm actually having 3 slices of bread with margarine and a mug of milo drink.

Where is money?

The call that I have been waiting for 2 days XD finally came this afternoon. My interview has been set. Sana pumasa ako :')
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And yes my Ear Fun Normal Edition arrived few days ago. This was what I have been talking about in my tumblr account. :D  So I welcome Ear Fun to the family! *throws confetti*

First Post

I was actually reading my 2008 and 2009 entries from my previous blog. Reading my stories bring back the memories from the past. :) Nagugulat na lang ako kasi may nangyari palang ganoon. :p


What shall I post here? Hmmm... I'll be posting random entries here ^^ i.e. fangirling stuff, real life , etc...


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